I woke up a couple hours ago to an empty house and that. I scribbled pretty damn hard on myself because my skin is all red and scratched up. And then there's that yellowish bruise at my wrist, like something grabbed hold of it and squeezed really tight. Which is of course disconcerting seeing as I've not really been near any other people for a few days.

Well, I go out I just don't...interact. Too much hassle because I don't want to talk to anyone, they seem distant and irritating. It's like I think because they can't help me with...with my problem, I have no use in talking to them. It's a waste of time really, at least that's how my mind is processing it. The only person I've ever really had a conversation about what's going on is Lee and she's

She's not here anymore. She's not dead, I mean she's just not really...She's not all here. She's been institutionalised, in a psychiatric unit in Orphington. I haven't been to see her though because I'm

I'm not comfortable with going somewhere like that. For fear of the future. That might be me soon. Granted, it might be safer but going via the fact He can probably be anywhere at any time it's a bit of a....stupid idea.

God, I've been scrubbing at the pen on my arm but it's just making it look more red and raw. Another test really isn't it. Test to see what control he has over me.

This is really the last straw, I'm leaving before He realises and before He can do anything worse. He's already made my best friend go mental and try to

well

not tried to. She killed her neighbours dog, hacked it up and then just sort of...

First she went missing about a week ago and I honestly thought she was dead, but then she turns up out of the blue, sitting next to the dead dog.

It doesn't matter. It's not gonna save her now really is it? Best not to think about it at all. Not until the right time, it's too much to get your head around all this. Orphington is a long way away to go right now, it would put too much strain on my family, they've been noticing my...self isolation. They try to understand, it's hard for kids when they loose friends and have their school broken into by someone who seemingly wants them and their friend.

My mum is really scared. She got told all about the break in and the defiled photos of Lee and I. She thinks I'm going crazy as well, she keeps trying to cohurst me into going back to Almere. Even if it's just for the holidays but...I don't really want to. As much as it kills me to say it, I want to to stay at home right now. I shouldn't because it might get me

It might be bad for me.

To be perfectly honest, there's not much that's good for me right now. Apart from running away.

I've always wondered, when you've run to all the places you can...where do you go?

If He followed you to every single place on the planet, where could you hide after that.

Because He can be everywhere and he can be there whenever He wants.

Once again, it's not like he plays by our rules.

I can't reiterate that enough.

He doesn't play fair.

I was reading my last post and realized,

I never mentioned what I did on the Solstice. Well, to put it simply, I did nothing. I sat in my room all day and watched. I just...watched.

Fuck sake, we KNOW you can't try and kill Him. Why don't you go and try and use a gun again? Or maybe a baseball bat? 'Coz that totally worked last time didn't it!

To take a quote from one of my favourite movies, The Dark Knight.

'This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object'

He's the Unstoppable force and we're the immovable object. 'Cept, we're getting tired and soon we're gonna be pretty damn movable, one slip and He's going to everywhere and we can't do anything.

You can't stop Him.

Can't
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But it's okay, we'll just try again won't we? Next Solstice perhaps. So far the only way I can think of killing Him is to die ourselves. He lives because we thought of Him right, well...that's how I see it. We can't truly get Him off of our minds so we might as well die.

This is what he's done. Whether we're on His side or not He'll always be there! HE'S ALWAYS THERE AND YOU ALL KNOW IT. He's turning me from a perfectly normal teenager into a morbid fuck that can't tell what's real and what's fiction. People have started wondering if I have schizophrenia. Or some sort of split personality disorder.

Nobodies helping me.

They're telling me to forget it all. Forget Him. Forget itForget itForget itForget itForget itForget itForget itForget it.

Maybe I don't want to. mayebe i want to go with ghim and rhe'll tkae fgood acre of me

I've been on my toes this whole time. Vigilance is hard for me, I get distracted and...well sans my regular upbeat nature. It's annoying, down right...irritating. The sense of His encroaching...presence. Pisses me off and makes me so damn riled up. I wanna just go scream at him but he's distancing himself. If I'm walking through town he won't come up to me, like he did before; rather, he'll just stand in an alley and watch. head twitching from side to side in that horrible manner it always does. When he approached me that time in the Police station, he was testing me. He was seeing how far he could push me, scare me. He's trying to get into my head...

And it's working.

It's like he's wormed his way into my mind and is pulling all the strings. God he's trying to make me follow him, be one of his puppets.

I sat for four hours staring at the window. Productive I know. But then I kind of just...stopped. Like, my brain shut down like a computer or something. It was a sort of awake sleep paralysis, except I could actually move. And I did. It was kinda like being pulled by something and at first it was gentle and I could see the front of my top rucking up like there was a,

Don't laugh,

invisible hand. God, if anyone would have seen me it must have looked like I was crazy or something.

And then it got kinda violent, and it was yanking at me and I couldn't get the door open quickly enough and it....He was outside and just watching. All the time just watching as it happened and for a moment I could hear Him and he was laughing at me. And then it stopped and I scrambled up quickly and managed to draw the curtains and yeah, I guess I wanted to peek out but I just couldn't face looking at his...well, his face. If you can call it that. Even without any features that staring it just...pierces into you. I can't stand it. I can't.

I broke down after that and spent the rest of the day hitting my head against the wall I was leaning on and I guess I must have just...passed out.

I think it's time I stop just talking about leaving and just go. Christmas is out the way so I won't need to worry about ruining it for my family.

Lee.

That's another problem.

She's missing.

It's all my fault.

Fuck, I really have to stop writing, something is knocking against my window and I hope to god it's a tree and not...you-know-who.

Also for anyone who tried on the Solstace.

I'm so fucking sorry it didn't work.

We're all fucking sorry.

Outside

He's outside my window. Right now.

I don't wanna take my eyes away from it because if I do He might move.

Just have to keep looking at Him.

Have to.

I can see Him. He's watching me.

I

I can't finish this post with any words of wisdom/comfort.

How can I?

He's here and he's found my house.

Maybe he knew where I was in the first place.

Wait.

He's gone...

I can't deal with this right now.

-Sintel

Missing two days.

I woke up in the park a few hours ago and had to catch a bus back home at around 7pm.

I'm missing two days...two whole days I don't remember. I had my bag and ipod and purse so at least no one had tried robbing me whilst I was unconscious. Or, whatever the hell happened to me.

God, I swear it feels like I've been asleep for a week. When I think about seeing Him, it's like it didn't really happen. Like it was a dream or something...

Maybe it was a dream. Christ knows, maybe I have been asleep for a week. And this whole Slender Man stuff was just one huge dream. But I really doubt it, my ears still hurt from my headphones blowing in them. I can honestly say, Slender Man, however harmless he may look; can get fucking pissy. I probably shouldn't have written that, he'll do some physic shit and read it with his mind or something stupid like that.

Anyway, when I woke up in the park it was pretty dark and yeah, I was insanely frightened. I've always had a certain fear of the dark. But, don't we all? I guess night is when we're most vulnerable, we can't see and the dulling of the sense of sight means sounds seem much louder. It's like a huge physique fuck. I stayed still for a long time, there were a few people in the park.

The whole time I wondering if any of them had ever thought about Him. Not very many I guess. But, it's our fault he's here. It's our own fault people die by His hand, willing Him into existence was the stupidest thing the Internet has ever done. But then again, the Internet is trying to save us from Him as well. We'd be pretty screwed if the only way of getting information about him was by letters and not blogs. Ha. Imagine sending telegrams about him.

Slender Man is a being willed into existence by the Internet, stop.
He's a BAMF, stop.
We're all buggered, stop.

I want to remember what happened the past two days. Wish I could remember anything, but it's...it's just not coming to me. The only clue I have is the numbers written on my body. When I woke up I noticed one on my hand and then there was one on my leg as well. They're in more places as well, like my back and the nape of my neck. I wrote them down as soon as I could see all of them. Not in any particular order they go,

0,98,7,91,400,8

I don't really know what they mean but it'll probably come to me soon. It's not like I have anything better to do, Slendy is like a constant theme in the tapestry of my mind. I mean, he made my ears get burnt. But then again, he also...I want him to comfort me. His arms...they're so inviting.

Swings and roundabouts really.

Which reminds me, I spent a while at the childrens' play park. Just watching them. No wonder he takes them, they have so much imagination. I remember when I was a kid, I used to get so scared by anything, I'd spend days being scared of things under my bed and in my closet. Again, no wonder he's after me, I think about him more than most probably. Always on my mind. I've started reading the paper again, to see if there's any reports of kidnappings or...

murders.

It's not the best idea but I feel like I need to know.

He's in this town because I let Him in. Or...maybe Lee did. She was the one who was first getting her knickers in a twist because of Him. Either way, we both should probably leave.

Ha.

Our families will love that, me and her running away at Christmas. I suppose we could tell we're going on some sort of trip...a self funded trip. They wouldn't believe, would they? Anything would be better than staying here and infecting the town with Him, it's not a big town; we'd kill everyone.

I can't think about that now, it's just gonna get me even more scared. To think all of this could and might be my fault, it's like suicide really isn't it. The main thing is I'm missing two days but...I'm alive.

I'm alive and all He's done so far is pop up and fuck up my ears. I'd say that's pretty good for a being who apparently ruins peoples lives, kills LOADS of people and generally is a bit of a twat. Hahahaha, I made my laugh at that. Slender Man; twat of the year.

I should stop. He might have a tizzy fit.

Can you tell the jokes are to hide how scared I am?

I don't have any pictures from today, all the pictures I took on Friday got distorted and messed up. I'll try and post some of the numbers on me, seeing as I'm having trouble washing them off so far; they'll probably be on my body till next week.

I need to sleep now, I'm not tired but I'm gonna take some Benzodiazepines, just a watered down brand my mum got prescription a couple months ago. Sleeping pills are a last resort but I really think I need them right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zb0HHq5KxOo

Just some music that sums up my thoughts right now. It's not a Marble Hornets video or anything like that if you were expecting that. Just regular music.

Night

-Sintel

White Cliffs

Hey.

Every post starts with how tired I am. Seriously. I'm gonna die from exhaustion before some imaginary thin man gets me. But for once, I'm not sleepy, far from it. My eyes are really wide and scary looking from my constant vigilance.

I spent three hours in the police station today, which was fun. People break into our school all the time, the walls are low and even the local people know the code to open the gate (which is why we change it all the time...doesn't work.) But someone broke in and trashed the Science lab and some of the English rooms. Well, not some English rooms...just one. Mine and Lees'. Paper and broken glass everywhere, but none of the windows or doors were broken. They think there might have been a mini earthquake but...only two rooms getting trashed doesn't make sense.

So, Lee and I got taken to the station for questioning. We didn't know why at first but then they showed us some pictures they found. In the science lab they found a singed picture of Lee and in the English room they a scribbled on one of me. I wasn't shocked, not really. My face was scribbled over with black marker pen. I'm not gonna ignore the fact he probably wants to use me. Lee. He probably wants to kill her...

She's gonna die.

God, I hope she doesn't. I need her, need to tell her all the things I've learnt.

They asked me if I knew anyone in school who had a grudge against me and Lee but I said no and kind of just shrugged at the other questions. Trying to act like I wasn't terrified. Then they told me some kids from the school up the hill from us, Astor; had gone missing. To turn up on the White Cliffs. One had fallen, the others were in a catatonic state around the area. They found some guy who admitted to doing it, pleaded insanity and for them to lock him away. He literally asked them to put him behind bars. It's just a speculation but, I think he was trying to get away from Slender. He may not have done the crime but,

The statements he gave were along the lines of, "I watched everything. Everything. Knows I saw. Now he's on to me." The police assumed "he" was the DCI (detective chief inspector) they had trying to find the kidnapper but...I think it was Him.

The guy, Hachell, was found dead in his cell at HM Prison Canterbury.

After the Q&A session I was sitting in the hallway with a cup of tea, I had my I-pod in and I nearly shat bricks when my music turned into ear piercing static. And then He was there.

Just...standing at the end of the corridor, head cocked to the side. Observing me.

I must have stood up because I found myself walking towards him. It's not like I was being controlled by Him...I actually wanted to face him. Find out why everyone was so scared of this harmless looking thing. He looked so...curious. I didn't care my music was still loud static and the over head lights were...swinging quite precariously, I kept walking until I was about five metres away from him.

It was so cold and my breath was steaming in the air. We stood just staring for a while before I said, "You're not a very good monster. Not show yourself for a week then just turn up..." I think I pissed him off. Does he understand our language? I just thought that...He must do because my ear phone sparked in my ears and fucking burnt the inner shell of my ear. Bloody hurt. He...

He seemed to get bigger. Maybe it was just my imagination. He definitely got more...well, more slender.

A police man walked by and He was gone. Like that. I stood there for about half and hour, ear phones sizzling on the floor, ears ringing.

Lee came out of the office and I walked behind her slowly till we got into town. I ran to the park and just sat there for a few hours. Staring at the trees and I guess they stared right back.

-Sintel

I'm so tired...

I fell asleep in my Geography class today.

I didn't sleep well again last night and now I'm feeling it creep up on me during the day, it's ruining my school work all this worry and late night research and blog reading. I look like crap, hair scraped back with ugly, purple and red bags under my eyes. I don't understand how anyone can bear to look at me, let alone have a fully conversation with me. I've started to slip into the arena of the unwell and...I'm inclined to drag people down with me. Whenever someone talks to me I feel the need to gush, and tell me things that will get them skewered on a tree.

Yeah. I read about those incidents. I used to like trees, pretty to photograph...to draw, sit under. I don't go near them. Which is hard because, they're planted all around my school. I hear Admiral Ackbar in my mind shouting, "IT'S A TRAP!" Whenever I get so much as a metre near one.

When I took my nap today I...I had a dream. It wasn't a nightmare because I swear I actually felt a certain sense of,

I don't know,

tranquility, when I was having it. I was fucking enjoying having a messed up and entirely insane dream where, He was talking to me. Talking to me. Not with a voice just...I could hear him. I followed him to the park in my town. Other kids started joining us, like some fucked up Pied Piper Of Hamlin. I wanted to go though, why wouldn't you trust such a smart dresser?

Ha.

We carried on till we came to my school, all these children who I (in a sort of coma like state) noticed, looked like...I don't know. They all sort of looked like the children from my old nursery group. But why this occurred to me I don't know, because they're faces weren't there. Replicas of Him almost. Almost. He stopped when he reached my school gates and turned to me, telling asking me to open the door and let him in. That's what he does. He gets you to open your door, your mind and then he just wanders in and makes himself comfy, you know, has a cup of tea. Looks through your music collection, kills your friends.

I'm not all here I swear.

The awful thing was, I wanted to let Him in. I wanted him to come and take them all away so there was only me and Him let. I...I think I may be becoming a hollowed. But that makes no sense, he's been making Lee sick not me, I don't have a cough...not yet.

I wish he would turn up. I wish he would face me and fucking leave Lee alone.

I found her in the chapel at our school. Praying. She doesn't even believe in God but...she thinks he'll help her. Maybe he will, has anyone ever tried hiding in a church from Him? Could work if he worked by our rules, and not his own. He's so sporadic. To each his own I guess. He's to different in every story. Sometimes he is aggressive, sometimes passive.

Can't really speak for myself as I've never encountered Him...

I should start thinking of a way to shake Him off. Run. Run....Lee told me to run. I could run with her. Two is always better than one, I don't want to be alone if he comes. I don't want to die alone. I don't want to die...

I want to contact someone, maybe M. He offers to answer questions and I need to know some things. maybe even suggest my church idea. Probably shit but I don't really care right now, do any of us? Do we really have a choice. Stay and die or run and keep death away for what...a week? A month? It's hard to stay moving, from an entity that doesn't care if your door is locked, he's fucking coming through and he's messing you up as well.

We're all just lambs and as much as I hate to say it, he's our shepherd, we're controlled by him whether we like it or not.

We just have to grow up and leave the flock, and I think when we do, that's when he gets angry and starts to shear us.

Ugh. Enough of this metaphorical bullshit, I'm going to sleep. And if I dream about Him, so bloody be it. I'll just think of Buddy Christ and it'll all be rainbows and sunshine drops.

-Sintel

I don't want to be so glum in posts now. I've looked back over the first few and I sound like some angsty dickhead, and I am most certain not. It's hard though, because as much as I don't want to admit it; these events are the most interesting thing in my life right now. And I gotta be honest that terrifies and amazes me at the same time. I'm finding myself wanting to know more and more about this...

Not gonna write his name, it scares me. Scares me to tears.

One year ago I went to see a play, it was wonderful. Atmospheric and scary. It was Woman In Black just to clarify. I spent most of the time clenching my eyes shut so tight it gave me a headache, but I still enjoyed being scared.

This isn't a kind of scared I enjoy.

I don't know what to think when I'm reading these blogs. The most information I've got is from some guy called M, but I'm still not reading enough of the blogs to understand. How the fuck can I when I get halfway through a paragraph saying that when someone is tagged or branded or whatever by this imaginary monster, it can be passed on?

You think I like the thoughts that jangle around my head that Leanne is marked by Him? I don't want to lose my best friend. It's too much for me to take in, I've been on this planet for fourteen years, that's not even half a life time. I'm not stupid, I don't want to believe but I'm starting to.

Leanne coughed on me. That's what scared me the most today I think. Not just my insane scribblings. My insane scribblings that I can't remember I did. The blogs say it's the cough.

Being around him makes you...sick. I've been sick the past week as well her? Am I for the chop...the...

Let's say that this whole thing isn't real, that nobody has died. Nobody has died. Nobody has died. So many have died...children. I have a niece, she's a baby, what if she grows up and he's passed on from me to her. My sister lives for her daughter, she's wanted to be a mother forever! I can't take that away from her. This slender thing must drive you insane with guilt and...anxiety. Is that how he kills you? He let's you destroy yourself from the inside? I have so many questions and I don't know who to ask.

I can't ask my friends because they might research Him and then. Well yeah, some things are better left unsaid. Or not thought up in the first place.

My brain is drawing me into this twisted world of Him. But my common sense is telling me to get the fuck out of there, stop using the interest to research Him. Bring Him to life so to speak. When I do go looking for him, I have to keep my music loud and cheerful or else I tense up (TENSO...not so funny really with everything that's going on) and start hyperventilating. I'm not sick anymore though. When I think about it, I haven't felt ill since before I blacked out in Physics. I need to research these (X) symbols more.

Do...Do they protect you from him? If so I'm thinking about scrawling them all over my bloody walls.

I'm not in a jokey mood right now, but I want to be. I want to cheer myself and get my head in gear. I'm looking through pictures me and Leanne took on my Mum's mac. Ha. My mum is so protective of her baby mac, when she found out i'd been messing around on it she started going on about how I could scratch it or damage it somehow.

Well, what she said was,

Je gaat krassen op het scherm, idioot.

*You're going to scratch the screen, idiot.

What a wonderful woman she is.

Adults don't get stalked do they?

I don't want my whole family to suffer from something that doesn't even exist when you don't think about him or, however the story goes.

It reminds me of a movie I have on DVD, One Missed Call. The original version. I used to watch that and think, "That's so creepy...the fact it's passed on my cell phones probably makes it scarier, seeing as they are something we use every day, by millions of people. And...you get if from your friends. Your contacts. This is mind numbingly scary." The ending was happy. Happy. The girl smiling down at the detective guy. But it could have been worse, she could have stabbed him.

Will any of the marked people's stories end up happy like that movie? From terror to joy...

I think I should be running, not sitting in bed with the curtains drawn. Listening to the rage of the wind outside hoping that it is wind and not something worse. I'm sleeping with the lights on tonight. I have to. There's always been a little girl inside me that has wanted to do it but, electricity is expensive and what's the point if I'm not scared of the dark?

I'm scared of the dark. I'm scared of what's in the dark, what the dark is made of...who controls it.

Don't believe in God. I believe in him as much as I believe Santa still buys me presents at Christmas.

I just had an awful thought.

I told my friend Jason that I would be starting a blog. Shit...I hope I didn't give him the address. Someone tell me it's not passed on through blogs. He lives two minutes away but...I'm too selfish to venture out when I think about the woods near my house and the lurking dread that fills the bottom of my stomach when I even just glance at a window. Even in the day I'm feeling more paranoid.

A mental break down at fourteen is not good. Not good.

I want to sleep. I'll talk to Jason tomorrow and...I'll talk to him.

I want to post this picture though, it's one of me and Leanne. We look sweet.



Me on the left, Lee on the Right.
Girls always do weird things with their hands, don't they...

  -Sintel

What the fuck is this.

I get told off in Physics for scribbling all over my work...

I didn't even do it, fuck sake.

...Don't think I did at least. I don't remember about ten minutes of the lesson. I remember setting up an experiment to measure the velocity of a moving object but, after that I...

The next thing I know my teacher is asking me why I'm defacing my work.

I drew...lightbulb symbols all over it. Indicator symbol, I don't know. There's a stick figure in the side as well, but I certainly didn't draw that, Leanne must have.

Yeah, Leanne is back at school now. She's...

She's content. For the moment.

I can't be bothered with this crap for the rest of the night

That's my work after I had a black out.

If anyone can Help mE, that would be brilLiant, thanks People.

-Sintel

Words cannot describe this...



I don't know why the time is changed on my blogs, but for the record; it's 00:19 right at this moment.

Fell asleep an hour ago, tired from crying down the phone at Leanne.

Ill.

I...I fell asleep in my bed, I know because I remember mum opening the door and telling me to wake up tomorrow; I don't know why she says that, it's not like one day I'm just not gonna...

wake up...

That's not the point.

I woke up ten minutes ago because someone was holding me. itwasnt a laptop cable, iknowtha t for sur.

I had fucking arms around me. Arms.

Sometimes I wake up and I'm half asleep and I see things, it happens but...I could feel them.
Warm and tight.

Like a hug my best friend might give but with none of the emotion. As soon as I woke up the feelingwasgo ne.

Too scared to sleep. I think I'll watch a moviefor a whlile little.

-Sintel

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Back to school...

I went back to school today.

It was freezing and my lessons were boring, as usual.

Leanne wasn't at school today, she texted me at lunch saying she was sick. Stomach bug, fever.

I probably gave it to her to be honest, but I don't think I'll mention that to her, no use working her up. Also she punches hard. Hard. She has been more irritable recently and anything will set her off. We were walking from the lunch hall to our house last week (we go to private school and we're split up into boys and girls houses, yes...a bit like Harry Potter.) She was...distracted and edgy. Glancing behind her and the arm that was linked with mine was holding onto me with bruising force.

Actually, I think she did bruise me.

When we got back to the house she was pale and sweaty. She got off Games (PE) and I did too...I lied, it's not that hard. I sat with her in the medical centre for two hours. She talked for five minutes, the rest of the time she was flat asleep. Near catatonic. Honestly, I couldn't wake her and I thought she might have died till I realised...she was breathing. Ha.

The only thing she talked about for those brief minutes was, if I had seen anyone following me or if I had been walking through town recently. On my own.

I told her no and she sighed and leant on the cushion on the sofa we were sitting on (In the medical centre we have two bedroom and one lounge thing, with a TV and one bathroom, the borders go there a lot to escape lessons and the houses...) The hand I was holding onto was all sweaty and a bit disgusting but I held it anyway, she was really quite ill.

Leanne stared at me with fierce determination, like she was drilling some idea into my head.

I think she thought someone was following me.

Maybe my dad, he lives in the town I go to school in. Parents divorced yadda yadda. When I was little I had dreams about my dad chasing me, not that he would ever, he's not that stupid.

...Now I think about it.

I don't she was asking me if I was being followed, I think she was telling me she was being followed.

I need to call her really, she's probably kinda scared.

I think I am well.

I should close my curtains, it lets the cold in.

Sometimes I wonder if it lets other things in as well...

-Sintel

So, I just woke up.

I joke woke up from my nap.

I looked at my camera and found this picture from this morning. I took too many pictures like, I don't honestly...remember taking this one.

The weather was horrible, snow and fog and more snow and sleet.

I'm...confused. That tree has never been there before. I swear...there's one slightly to the left of this picture but...

Not one there.

My fingers are aching again but it's probably because I typed up a whole essay.

I felt like writing and after writing a whole essay on Before You Were Mine by Carol Anne Duffy got me super tired. My eyes hurt as well,

all droppy and I wanna just rub them. My glasses aren't helping at all.

I can't stop staring at the window. I felt like I haven't blinked in hours.

My eYeS ArE BuRnInG

I want to cry but nothing is coming out.

I must be really sick...

-Sintel

1st Post

So, I took a sick day today and I thought I would cure the boredom of sitting in my box-like bedroom; and write up a blog.

It's just a tummy bug. I think some other people from my school have it, so it's nothing to worry about.
But I am burning up a bit. I checked my heater and it wasn't turned up too high, so I was confused as to why I was so hot. I had a temperature of 38.3 °C (101°F) which was a bit worrying, I never get much of a temperature.

I didn't sleep well at all last night, I drifted in and out of sleep. With weird dreams that I don't remember but I knew I was having. I hate those kind of dreams because, I like to record my dreams because they always hold that fantastical element I won't have in my normal life.

The few glimpses of sleep I managed to catch were brief and cold. Then too hot. I was constantly kicking the covers on and off.

I noticed a lot of bruises on my legs and on my biceps as well. Yellow in colour which means they're fresh and they're quite painful when I poke them, which seems like a stupid thing to do but I still kinda enjoy it.

My house is getting really cold and I think it might be snowing outside. My fingers are aching and I need to stop writing, I'm drousy from the medicine I took about twenty minutes ago.

-Sintel