Tuesday 1 March 2011

I'm sorry I haven't posted much recently. But can you really blame me, it's not like I have been in the best...position. Along with that, my laptop was having some problems. I'm not going to jump to any conclusions but,


No. You know what, it's all His fault. I was browsing some forums when, BAM, static screaming at me on my already crackly speakers. You would have laughed if you saw how much I jumped out of my seat in Starbucks. People were doing that irritating,


rude,


thing of staring at me.


I guess I've become accustomed to it though, I seem to always be embarrassing myself in front of the general public. But, if it's a choice between making a fool of myself and not dying. I think the choice is pretty fucking obvious. I'm sat there afterwards just staring at my laptop screen which is like...yellow bars and it looks like the screen is completely messed up, I don't really know what to do about it...


I'm in an Apple store updating right now.


I hate places where people can see me type, it...worries me I guess. Having people see how neurotic I've become is not something I really enjoy and right now I probably look like shit. 


I threw away my phone, I don't really need it anyway and it was just ringing constantly and it wouldn't stop and it made my head hurt for days. I've decided I'm not moving for a while though, it seems clear where I am right now, suburban, lots of people around. He doesn't appear much when I have about fifty people crowding round me in a high street. I stay away from Alley ways, especially at night. I use bus stops and roofs, sometimes libraries, to sleep in and...It's alright.


I kind of miss my bed.


But I might have a place to stay for a while, a house. I got a tip off, someone emailed me and said they wanted to meet me, they live around the Boston area and so they're going to travel down and I'm going to meet them,


meet them...I'm
Hesitant.


I want to trust them because that's all I want right now, trust.


I'm going to take my camera...I tell myself it's because I just want to document it but it's also because I want people out there to believe me.


Believe me.


And then maybe they'll help.